I'm definitely more reflective this year than I may have been in years past. I have a new sense of appreciation for my life and the people in it that mean so much. I've crossed paths with so many amazing people this year that I wouldn't have met otherwise. I refuse to thank cancer for anything, but I would be remiss if I didn't acknowledge the strong bonds I've formed as a result of it.
I'm not one to make resolutions - primarily because I suck at sticking to anything for longer than about three weeks. Now, though, I resolve to be kinder. Period. I'll be more thoughtful and considerate of others. I'll reach out more often. If someone is on my mind, I'll say hello. I have a fierce temper and a sharp tongue and I genuinely don't anticipate either of those things to go away, but I will do my very best to try to curb the venom. (Unless someone is being a royal douche wagon, and then all bets are off. Sorry...)
These are a few of the other things I'm aiming for in the coming year:
I will love Frankenboob, even if he's misshapen and feels weird.
I will love my salt and pepper hair, even if it means that I may need to tell people that I'm 15 years older so that they can say, "Damn! You look great for your age!"
I will love my extra curves and rolls and "fluffiness", even if I feel like Violet Beauregarde. (Yes, from the original. Not that Johnny Depp debacle.)
I will love my friends and family, even if they make me bat shit crazy. (It just means we need a time out, that's all.)
I will love people that hug me too hard, even if I'm sure that Frankenboob might pop.
I will love saying "fuck", even if it offends people. (Wait. I do that anyway.)
I will love myself, even when I feel like the "good" days are gone.
I will love my daughters unconditionally forever and ever, even if they make fools of themselves sometimes.
I will love my husband unconditionally forever and ever, even if he grimaces when I drive. Every. Time.
I will love all of you, even if I don't know many of you. You've given me an outlet and helped me keep my head on straight.
From the bottom of my fatigued little heart, I wish you all the happiest of holiday seasons. Whatever you celebrate, or if you celebrate nothing at all... Peace, love and all that good shit.